Learning... and churning... and yearning...
Big month so far! August came in like a lion, and at this rate I guess I wouldn't mind if it went out like a lamb with my luggage and flights going very smoothly.
I've enjoyed relaxing and spending time with friends and family much longer than I normally would. Right now I would have likely been flying back to the North, boxes packed, shopping complete, lesson plans spinning around my head, excitement to get started with my new students whirling around in the pit of my stomach... But nope, instead I am revelling in the knowledge that I have another two weeks of summer and sun and relaxation and... house repair planning?
Yeah, did I mention I bought a house? WTF! I KNOW, I really am kind of surprised that I did it. I mean, I have been thinking and talking to Dad about investing in something a little bit bigger than what I have been doing so far. But it does seem a bit like a blurr now that there is a property in Yarmouth that I own...
It's kind of freaking me out because it is such a serious move. It's going to affect the way I think about my finances, my social life, etc. Although most people are asking if it means I am staying in NS, no it doesn't. This will always be considered home, but I am not yet ready to live and work here. I have too many things that I still want to do up North. I really want to see certain kids make it through, graduate and become well established members of the community. I owe it to them, I owe it equally to myself. Melissa, for example, I need to see her make a run at graduation. I need to see her not get mixed up with the usual trash. And Wayne. I don't want him to be shot down, so close to the end.
It also makes it easier to know that there is no one here that is making me tossed up on that either. I love the family, but know we will be close near or far. So far this summer in the "love interest" department there's not been any series contenders appearing. Lots of flirts but nothing that seems like it will be anything more than that. Problem with flirts is I realize that I have a very, uncontainable imagination. I can imagine a very long and happy future with flirts FAR FAR FAR too easily. It makes my heart flutter in that realm of possibility and sadly, flirts are often already in long term relationships, which you only find out after you have some well laid plans of how you will get together...
Likely the problem is also that I am a chicken to do much straight-forward flirting back when the flirting is initially happening... Then I regret the lack of laying it on the line at the time and plan how it might happen to redeem myself. Maybe the timidity has saved me face? Depends on how you look at that one...
Let's see what the rest of August holds... Hope you enjoy the rambling! Time to get myself going...
I've enjoyed relaxing and spending time with friends and family much longer than I normally would. Right now I would have likely been flying back to the North, boxes packed, shopping complete, lesson plans spinning around my head, excitement to get started with my new students whirling around in the pit of my stomach... But nope, instead I am revelling in the knowledge that I have another two weeks of summer and sun and relaxation and... house repair planning?
Yeah, did I mention I bought a house? WTF! I KNOW, I really am kind of surprised that I did it. I mean, I have been thinking and talking to Dad about investing in something a little bit bigger than what I have been doing so far. But it does seem a bit like a blurr now that there is a property in Yarmouth that I own...
It's kind of freaking me out because it is such a serious move. It's going to affect the way I think about my finances, my social life, etc. Although most people are asking if it means I am staying in NS, no it doesn't. This will always be considered home, but I am not yet ready to live and work here. I have too many things that I still want to do up North. I really want to see certain kids make it through, graduate and become well established members of the community. I owe it to them, I owe it equally to myself. Melissa, for example, I need to see her make a run at graduation. I need to see her not get mixed up with the usual trash. And Wayne. I don't want him to be shot down, so close to the end.
It also makes it easier to know that there is no one here that is making me tossed up on that either. I love the family, but know we will be close near or far. So far this summer in the "love interest" department there's not been any series contenders appearing. Lots of flirts but nothing that seems like it will be anything more than that. Problem with flirts is I realize that I have a very, uncontainable imagination. I can imagine a very long and happy future with flirts FAR FAR FAR too easily. It makes my heart flutter in that realm of possibility and sadly, flirts are often already in long term relationships, which you only find out after you have some well laid plans of how you will get together...
Likely the problem is also that I am a chicken to do much straight-forward flirting back when the flirting is initially happening... Then I regret the lack of laying it on the line at the time and plan how it might happen to redeem myself. Maybe the timidity has saved me face? Depends on how you look at that one...
Let's see what the rest of August holds... Hope you enjoy the rambling! Time to get myself going...
Labels: love, summer holidays
posted by Gillian at
9:47:00 AM
1 Comments:
You're so right about the connections between people having nothing to do with physical distances--- there is no space between connected hearts--- but I am glad that you have one more physical tie to Yarmouth,,,,, sorry we didn't get together this summer-- who knows??
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