Thinking even more clearly...

Ok, so after putting my thoughts out there for you all to read, I thought about it more... Since I don't like to publish "un-truths" on this. So, I have to make an amendment to the previous entry I made since it is not quite 100% true...

I was reminded of many, many people, that I do not automatically "click" with. There are a few that I do have the instant connection with, but there are many others with which this is not in fact the case. I have had quite a few instances of meeting/communicating with people and leaving with friction and misunderstandings that are confusing and leave me quite frustrated. *"oh, why does this person not understand me... that's not what I meant... why can't they get what I mean and how I feel?!"*

So, clearly, I do not have any gift for dis-arming people, as I had delusionally believed on Thursday (the date of my last post)... But instead, I think it is that with some people, I change the way I act, speak, think and behave. I open MYSELF more to some and NOT to others. THAT is why I connect to some people and not to others... Fortunately, when I open myself, others tend to respond in an open way, and likewise when I remain closed and don't offer much of myself to people, they tend to do the same and no connection is made in those circumstances...

So simple... I mean, that is the essence of communication... One person communicates and others respond, whether it is with words or body language... Now, I feel challenged to have an attitude that is more open to everyone. To make the most of EVERY opportunity to connect with people. It's funny because as I am writing these thoughts, I am watching Gill Deacon on CBC, and she is currently interviewing Phil Keoghan, the host of "No Opportunity Wasted", and some of his beliefs fit in to the new mindset I would like to have. To be a "NOW" person, that doesn't think of reason not to do something, but who tries to make the most of every opportunity that presents itself. Living a life without fears or apprehensions, one without regrets and "I wish"-es, instead with "I did"-s...

So, last week, when I had that amazing conversation with Audra at the Ex, it was because I had been fascinated by her- her confidence, her charisma, her passion in the music she was presenting, and as I walked up to talk to her, I was open, I was curious, I wanted to find out her secrets, her story, what molded her to be the way she was... It wasn't that she felt connected to me as much as I opened myself, and boldly asked and offered of my own story...

Now that I feel I understand that better, I better get my butt off the couch and finish my packing. I travel back up north on Aug 15th. Summer holidays are almost finished ALREADY!

The picture at the top was one I took last night, as I was putting away clothes in my wardrobe last night I noticed the collection of shoes and it kind of made me laugh. These shoes are me- a real mix of opposites- fancy and the faithful "All Stars"... Enough of the psychology for now... Next post, when I have time will be Keji pictures... Have a great week!